Goodbye 2012

As I sit here and reflect on 2012, my heart feels heavy.  Without a doubt, the highlight of this year was Kaden's birth on August 6th.  He has completed our family.  I am so blessed.  And, I am blessed to have a kind-hearted four year old precious girl.  Both Kaden and Kathryn are true gifts from God and I could not imagine my life without them.  There were several other highlights from the year to include a fun trip to Disney World with Kathryn, Mimi, and Papa as well as a trip to Virginia for a friend's wedding.  However, my heart is heavy because there were some events that occurred this year that I would like to completely erase from my memory.  I know I shouldn't, but sometimes I question God and His plan for me and my life.  I question why things happen.  Again, I know I shouldn't do this.  I know that His plan is far greater than anything I can imagine, but at times I struggle when challenges occur.  I do feel that in the last few months that my relationship with God has become closer and more intimate.  I purposefully pray every day.  And, maybe that is why things happened.  Maybe God knew I needed to walk closer with Him and pray more/harder.  If that was His plan, it worked!  I am trying very hard to move forward.  In 2013 I am going to work on being forgiving.  "Forgiveness does not make the other person right; it sets you free."  This is a quote from a book I am currently reading, and I plan to remind myself of this everyday.  Watch out 2013, I am ready for you!